Paved With Good Intentions

[IHeart]

(OCC: To quote Linksano from Batman Jazz #1, "The road to hell is paved with good intentions. Any villain can give a good purpose to whatever goal they make". So yeah, it's based on A Friend In Need, it's right after that thread so yeah, same time too, Open to Linkara and IHeart only)

IHeart sobbed in her guestroom, feeling disgusting and no will to go on anymore. She told the puppies, who wished to sleep with her since Patch's betrayal, to sleep with someone else, because she was a selfasorbed monster. IHeart nearly did the most cruel thing she ever did and admitted out loud if given the chance, she'd kill her enemies, including DarkHeart. She admitted to not giving a damn as long as it implyed to her goals of satisfaction.

She was told by everyone, even Queen Grimhilde, that it was not her fault, that she was only angry and reacted emotionally. IHeart snapped at them out of defiance, no she thought, no she was not reacting out of anger, she was really a person that was a monster and evil. She may have reacted a bit too harshly on herself but she didn't care, she hated herself now. She would not talk to anyone, not even Ma-Ti and he too tried to tell her she was not a monster and didn't mean it. She was tired of it, she would punish herself by isolation and guilt trips. She sobbed louder, in fact she was sure someone, anyone, could hear her

[Linkara]

Linkara sighed. Just once, just for once in his life he wished that IHeart could stay happy for more than a month without something going on that would break her back down. Not that he was blaming her, rather he was blaming Ask that Guy, Mechakara, DarkHeart, Seven Eleven, Malachite and even himself. He clearly needed to work on how he reacted. While his job as champion of the universe did entail him defending his planet, he did have to wonder if he was supposed to use violence. However, the main thought he had on right now was trying to get IHeart to respond. For some reason it seemed the door was slightly locked.

"IHeart, come on. Open the door so I can talk!"

[IHeart]

IHeart's sobbing ended eventually. She turned to hear Linkara's voice. The very person who seemed to probably not want to speak to her, wanted to speak to her. She held the pillow tightly and heard him say he wanted to talk to her. Why? After what she did? One would think they'd stay away or better yet realize to stay away. She felt like crawling in a hole, nothing would change that as of that moment.

"Why?" She demanded, angry only at herself, and felt like abusing herself by simply driving Linkara away. She tearfully let out "Why talk to a monster?" She replied a bit more "Yeah, I said it. I'm a monster, and the only way you're getting in here is through your sonic screwdriver" She let out some tears "You don't deserve me Link"

[Linkara]

"Well, I've got some news for you kiddo. I am not leaving until you realise just how much you mean to me and just how stupid it is that you are beating yourself up about this. So, on the count of three, I'm coming in and we are going to talk about this." Linkara refused to leave without getting IHeart to calm down and accept that she didn't need to do this. He mentally counted in his head. 1.. 2... 3! With that, he pulled out his screwdriver and opened the door. He then calmly walked in and saw IHeart lying on the bed, he didn't say anything, he just walked over.

[IHeart]

IHeart knew he wouldn't give up on her. She knew it. She just knew it. Linkara was never one to back down from a friend. She honestly was shocked of how stubborn minded she was but as her anger took over, she covered her head in a pillow, breathing heavilly out of crying, her tearful breathing sounded like gasps. She eventually looked and of course, there he was. Looking at her and walking right towards her. At the sight of her brother figure she burst down again and sobbed more. This time it was out of apoligy, she never wanted to hurt anyone, or better yet she never meant to say those things in front of her enemies, and now that she had she could never take them back.

After her little sob attack she looked at Linkara with tear-filled eyes and replied "You heard what she said to me? DarkHeart. She called me the very thing I despised and she's right for once. She's right. I became the thing I hated and I can never take it back"

[Linkara]

Linkara mentally cursed himself. Sometimes, he really wished that he was much, much more better at comforting people, like Liz or Paw or Roses. But no, he was the one who always seemed to have to comfort her. Before he could start, he widened his eyes in shock. It was official, she had it bad "Look, don't you think that we've all done things that we hate. Like how Critic treated Ma Ti on the Quest for the Gauntlet. And like how Chick used to treat Nella. We've all done bad things."

[IHeart]

"You guys are different" A poor excuse but a excuse nonetheless. IHeart felt that those mistakes couldn't be helped. They were simply acts of neglect and poor friendship, she acted out of pure malice and spite. It was different. She rubbed her eyes, which were red and still had tears. She spoke weakly, as if it took energy out of her and replied again "I threatened to kill someone. I nearly did. Sure she could've defended herself but if it wasn't for Jesu I'd probably just try to kill her anyway"

She sniffed and hugged the pillow "You guys have done bad things sure but nothing compared to what I did. You guys are better than me. You're better than me"

[Linkara]

Linkara almost shouted at IHeart but he managed to calm himself down, what she needed now was not shouting or making her feel bad. What she needed was calm, gentle persuasion "I understand a lot better than you think. I talked the Entity into killing itself remember?" He then sighed "Look, have you thought of it this way. JO was a little out of her depth with Dark Heart, imagine if she had gotten loose and attacked her. She'd either be wounded, or worse. If Mechakara was to attack Harvey and Snob, I would not hesitate to utterly wipe him off the planet. Okay, so killing should never be the answer, but you have to defend not only yourself but your friends at the same time."

[IHeart]

IHeart listened. She was calm enough now to. She widened her eyes thinking that linkara indeed had a point. JO and everybody on this army along with the villains themselves were hurting each other left and right but not out of murder but of self-protection and of loyalty to the war. Linkara's reasoning also helped, since he simply spoke calmly and not shouting. It was out of concern.

She eventually sat upright, moving a bit for Linkara to sit down if he wished it. She asked not out of objection but of uncertainity "But... What about what I said? I litterally screamed that I wished DarkHeart dead. That was... well yeah, not appropriete"

[Linkara]

Nov 2, 2012 15:51:48 GMT -5 IHeart said:

IHeart listened. She was calm enough now to. She widened her eyes thinking that linkara indeed had a point. JO and everybody on this army along with the villains themselves were hurting each other left and right but not out of murder but of self-protection and of loyalty to the war. Linkara's reasoning also helped, since he simply spoke calmly and not shouting. It was out of concern.

She eventually sat upright, moving a bit for Linkara to sit down if he wished it. She asked not out of objection but of uncertainity "But... What about what I said? I litterally screamed that I wished DarkHeart dead. That was... well yeah, not appropriete"

Linkara sat down on the bed on the space she had set out for him "IHeart, you are not the first, and you wouldn't be the last, to say that. There are high school nerds who are telling others that they wish the jocks would drop dead on the field. There are millions of people who get p*sed off to say stuff like that. You are not alone, and you are not a monster. Monsters don't cry when they say stuff like that. Humans feel guilt and pain if they do something that they think betray their principles." He took a deep breath "What I'm trying to say is this: A lot of people can snap out and do stuff, but it takes real heart to feel upset about it. In my mind, you don't need forgiveness for anything."

[IHeart]

IHeart took the words in. Linkara wasn't mad at her, in fact he did understand. There were people like her but she did feel guilty and upset for what she said. DarkHeart never took back what she said and never felt bad. She was still a heroic person after all! IHeart cheered up more and sat closer to Linkara. Feeling better. The talking was easy and good for her. She smiled even and replied after taking it in "You really mean that Link? You aren't mad at me?"

[Linkara]

"Mad? Kid, I'm mad at a lot of things. Mechakara, Ask That Guy, the thought that One More Day still hasn't been resovled, the fact that my toast was burnt this morning. But if there is one thing that I am not mad at, it's you. The only thing that involves you and mad in the same sentence is that I'm mad that you've been put through this." Linkara beamed at her, then turned serious "Next time Dark Heart says stuff like that, then ignore it. It's typical villain cliches."

[IHeart]

IHeart snorted in amusement at Linkara's pet peeves. She then listened to what Linkara said when his face turned from a happy smile to a serious look. She nodded and kept that to herself. DarkHeart's words wouldn't get to her. Not anymore. Fuck that robot trash. She hugged Linkara as tightly as she could without hurting him and replied "Thank you"

[Linkara]

"You're welcome, sis." He rubbed her head affectionatly before standing up and stretching his arms "So, what do you want to do? Go downstairs and see the others, or stay up here for a little bit? I don't mind whichever way."

[IHeart]

"Maybe we can stay here for a bit longer?" IHeart asked kindly. She felt the need to talk more alone with her brother figure Linkara. She replied assuringly "If you do want to go downstairs it's fine but I feel like I want to talk to you more about stuff"