Dean Deanie Deanister, what are you up to?[Dean]

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[ooc:April 12]


Sam walked around and sighed, as he wondered where was his brother Dean. A thought came to him, as he shook his head, hoping that it wasn't the case. "You better not" Sam thought, since when Dean wasn't good with relationships, he didn't want to be the one who had to help a girl too feel better. It might have not have happened as often as it might have, but it didn't mean it couldn't have, which worried him, as he shuddered at that thought, as it wasn't for his test. Sam had no idea what to think as well  as expect, which worried him, especially since they weren't that long yet, in this place. He looked around as he tried to find his brother. "Dean? Dean? Dean?" Sam called out, as he tried to get his older brother

"Dean? Where the hell did you go to now? What are you up to?" He said to no one in particular, as he continued to search around for his older brother. Sam looked around as he continued to walk. "Dean?" he called out few minutes later, as he wondered if he would find his brother or not. Then again Sam looked around for his older brother all over the place. "What are you up to now?" he asked no one in particular as he looked around once more. He hoped that his brother wasn't in trouble as he wasn't really in the mood for that. Sam was 22 but it was no doubt that he wasn't a fool, and knew his brother well even if there were things he didn't know about his brother, but he knew most things about him  especially from their childhood.

"Dean? Can you just not do anything dumb?" 

[Dean Winchester]

Dean sat on the back porch shirtless only wearing a pair of black shorts and sunglasses. He was sitting in a chair sunbathing. He was just glad to sit back and relax for a change. There was no evil spirits or demons outside of the war they had to rush off and hunt. Which meant no sleeping in the car, or random hotels. The danger was still real though but this time they had a lot more help than just the usual dad and Bobby. He was worried about his dad though hoping he was ok. Although the fact he had another brother out there he never knew had made him sad. Nella had told Sam and Sam had told him. Adam was his name and he grew up safe with his mother. The life he knew Sam always wanted away from hunting. He looked up hearing Sam call for him and chuckled.

"I'm out here Sammy. And no I haven't done anything dumb since we got stuck here." said Dean.

He was glad to be an adult again. His time stuck as a teenager for two weeks had been awful and he'd avoided Sam for the most part as he'd been a bit overprotective of him. He couldn't blame Sam of course. But he'd always been the older brother and when it was temporarily the other way around he felt annoyed Sam was trying to protect him. He guessed Sam was trying to pay him back for looking out for him all these years. But it had still bugged him. But he was glad to be back to his old self again. He didn't even remember when the last time they'd talked recently so he was glad to see his brother again. He waited hoping Sam came out to join him as he grabbed the beer from the table and began sipping it.

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Sam heard his older brother and headed over, to check on him. He looked at his brother, and sighed in relief as soon as he saw him. Sam looked around and back at him, as he was glad that his brother was an adult again, even so some part of him was upset about that because he  had too much fun with it. He wasn't sure if his brother learn his lesson or not, for the way he treated him among other things. However, Sam hoped that he would, or that he did already for that matter of fact. Whichever option it is, it was better than nothing. However, he did his best not to think of that, as he set by his older brother, Dean. Sam  looked around and back at his brother. "That's good to know, because I will not bail you from it, Dean" Sam said to his older brother. He wondered if his brother thought about their other brother or not, as he did and even wondered where he was, for that matter. Sam had no idea one way or another if they would ever find their younger brother, but he refused to give up. For the time being so, other things seemed more important to him than that.  That was why he tried his best to think about other things than that. However, Sam always hoped and still did, to one day meet his baby brother. Find him, meet him and talk to him, to be exact. Since he had only ever heard of him. Sam couldn't believe that his dad had an affair behind their backs. That was definitely wrong, or that was how he saw it. Which was why on one hand he wanted to find his dad but on other hand he wasn't sure about it.  

Sam shook his head to those thoughts and sighed, as he watched his brother. He then wondered how things were back home and wished that he was there, but he was also glad to be with his older brother. "Dean you didn't drink to much beer right?" Sam asked his brother few minutes later. He was rather bored as they had less things to do here then back home. "Are you somewhat bored here, unlike back home?" Sam asked his brother. Also they weren't hunting anymore, there was a war where they were and it was just as real as hunting, there was no doubt about it. Sam wondered if they had a chance or not, because it seemed rather worse than back home, there was no doubt about that, not to him at least.

[Dean Winchester]

Dean chuckled at him.

"Oh really? Isn't that kind of our thing. Hunting demons and bailing each other out of trouble." said Dean.

He paused looking up as Sam spoke again.

"How much is too much to you Sammy?" asked Dean.

He chuckled again and tried to mentally count how many he'd had.

"I've had only a couple so far I think. I'm not that drunk. Besides I never get too drunk anymore. Being on the road fighting demons and all I usually just drink 2 or 3." said Dean.

He sighed at Sammy's question.

"I'm not bored. There's a lot of stuff to do here. I'm glad we're here. We might never have known about Adam. Our brother. We should have been there. To look out for him. Embarrass him. Show him the ropes. All of it. Dad kept him from us and we can't even find out why because he's not here." said Dean.

@samwinchester

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Sam watched him, as he picked up an eyebrow and shook his head. As he listened to him. "Yes really. As it is rather frustrating to say the least, Dean. Yes it is, but it depends on the trouble" Sam said to him. "If one you created but making trouble then you bail yourself out, other wise I will" he added and sighed to that. "I can't bail you out by fixing your messes, you do now that, don't you?" Sam said to him few minutes later and sighed to that. He looked around and back at him, as he wondered what would his brother say next, as he watched him once more. Sam didn't really trust his brother, at least not with all things anyway. He trusted him with only some things, which did include his life, and being there for him, even if not always on time because of a pretty girl, but still. Sam did love his brother, all in all but he did annoy him a lot too, and even then he wouldn't let anyone hurt him, as they were still brothers after all, which won't ever change.

Anyway, as he spoke again, as he watched him him once more. After Sam was done, he listend to his brother yet again. "You know all too well the answer to that, Dean. Did you drink too much or not?" he said to him, and sighed as he wasn't sure what to think or to say next, as he sighed again.  Sam watched him and picked up an eyebrow, not sure what tp think or believe. "A couple? So far? You think? What do you mean? You haven't counted? Dean?!" he said, as the last one he said firmly, and then he shook his head to that. "Are you really? Would you admit to it if you were?" Sam asked few minutes later as he looked around an back at him. "Is that so? You do make mistakes, as do I but you make more than me so" he said to him few minutes later and sighed to that. "And can  you maybe not drink at all for a week or so? Just drink coffee? Water? Juice? Or tea instead?" Sam asked, even so he figured that he knew the answer already, but asked anyway, just in case.

As he asked the next question, he looked down and back at him, as he watched him yet again, and after that he listened to her once more. "Really? You sure? Then what exactly are you doing?" Sam asked, as he really wanted to know for sure. "Is there now? You sure? Like what exactly?" he asked as he picked up an eyebrow at his brother. "Maybe and maybe not, we can't ever be sure. You from all people should know that by now! And maybe so, but how could we if we never knew that he existed? Blame dad for that one, though." Sam said, as he looked around and back at his brother. "Right. You mean like you did to me, all my life before I left for college? You did that enough to me, don't do it to him, when we meet him" he said and sighed, as he didn't really agree with that. as he didn't really like that idea, if at all.  "Yeah his fault, but he could be dead or captured for all we know. And wasn't it you who were angry at me for leaving you and dad? And now you are in between his side and against him? What is it with you, Dean? "

[Dean Winchester]

Dean chuckled.

"I wouldn't get into much trouble here. Besides this war will keep us pretty busy. Some of them are dark sorcerers and creatures we'd have been taking out if we were back home anyway. It's just kind of weird being in one place though. Aside from staying at Bobby's once and a while we never stayed in one place for too long. At least not while hunting." said Dean.

Dean smirked.

"I've only had a couple. I know my limits. Besides if I wanted to get drunk I'd do it in my room. I wouldn't want to my a fool of myself. Most of the kids may be staying at the safe house now but that doesn't mean they can't visit." said Dean.

Dean raised an eyebrow at Sam's words.

"It helps me relax. So I won't be stopping. But I'll just keep it to a couple. We all need to keep a clear head. They've had repeated attacks here at the house and people were abducted. Thankfully we got them back but still." said Dean.

Dean sighed.

"But he's our brother. I was supposed to be looking after him just like you. And I feel like I failed him. What if he didn't have a good life? What if he had bullies? We weren't there for his first date. Or to make sure he had good taste in music and cars. We missed so much of his life." said Dean.

He paused as he spoke and sighed.

"I was mad you left but I was also jealous. You could go to have a normal life. A girlfriend. Maybe even have kids one day. I don't think that will ever happen for me." said Dean.

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Sam watched his brother as he listened to him and picked an eyebrow at him about it. To say that he didn't believe his brother was an understatement.  Then again Sam was used to his brother saying that only to do the opposite.  He wouldn't be surprised if it turned out the same way where they were at the moment. Sam wanted to believe his brother but after everything that happened he wasn't sure about it. He had no idea if his brother knew how, to be honest at all or not, which was why he refused to believe him until he knew for sure. Sam looked around and back at his brother, as he sighed to that lost in thoughts. He wondered if he should even believe anything he said or just ignore it, given that he wasn't sure one way or another about whether his brother lied at that moment or not.

"Is that so? You said it a lot and if my memory serves, which I believe it does it ended up exactly the opposite. Why now would it be any different? You don't usually tell the exact truth, remember?Yeah, but knowing you even something like that won't stop you from hooking up, and getting into trouble, that's the difference between us, Dean. I see, and you are sure you aren't planning to run away and hide?Or sleep with a girl until it's time to fight? Or something like that? Like getting into trouble or such? And if one of the enemies turns out to be an evil clown, what would you do? It is, can you handle it or you will run around like a lunatic eventually because of that?Yeah, exactly, can you actually handle that? Yeah, can you handle it?"

Sam watched his brother as he said that to him. He wasn't sure what to expect from his older brother. Sam spoke again and then listened to his brother once more and sighed to that. He hoped it was the truth but wasn't sure whether he buy that or not. Sam sighed as he partly believed his brother but also, partly didn't, yet if to be honest he more didn't believe him than believe him.  He looked to the ground for a bit and back at him. Sam wondered what was going in his head at that exact moment. He sighed as he continued to watch his big brother. 

"Really? You sure? Two glasses? Or 4 glasses? Good thing that we don't need to drive, or I will have to take your keys from you. Which you know as well as I do, that I will do that. Do you know your limits? Do you really? Is that so? Can I even trust you, Dean? Like at all?If you do that, you will make a fool of yourself, but you would make me a brother of a fool, which I rather not. Well, that's for sure, and they don't need to see drunk like an idiot or something like that, do they? One cup/ glass whatever is enough for a lifetime, don't you think? Just don't over do it, or that won't do anyone any good, you know that, don't you?"

Sam said as he watched his brother and shook his head, as he spoke to him once more as he continued to watch him. After that, he listened to him again and sighed, not sure like before if he could believe him or not.  Sam thought that his brother was weird, given the fact that he used drinks to relax him, instead of walking around or things like that, which could help way better than drinks. Even sleeping helped better than that, or so he thought at least. Also, he continued to listen to him, but he wasn't sure whether he buy that or not so. With his brother, he wasn't sure one way or another, no matter how long had passed. 

"Really? More then resting and walking? This is crazy, Dean. You might not realize it and end up drinking too much. Is that what you want? You will regret that eventually, Dean? Would you really? Do you even pay attention how much you are drinking Dean? Do you? Yeah, we do but with you, it might not even be possible, and that's what's worrying me. Alright, but the thing is with you, you very rarely know when to quit, no matter what it is, don't forget that! How can you be sure that you do now? What's the difference between now and before? Is there any difference? You are the same person as you always were, aren't you? So, what do you plan to do after this drink? Take two more? Three more? What? Do tell me, Dean, as I need to know if I can trust you or not, after all."

Sam said and sighed to that. He spoke again and then sighed and shook his head to that, as he listened to his brother Dean speak. Sam looked around and back at his brother, as he sighed once more, as he let his brother stop talking before he spoke once more. He couldn't believe what he heard. Sam wondered if his brother really thought that or was just speaking in general or something like that. However, the more he looked at him, the more, he realized that his brother was indeed serious, as he shook his head again but let his brother stop talking before he spoke again. Sam knew of course that his brother was a good guy, even if it wasn't easy to get out the good side of him out, even if it wasn't exactly impossible either. Also, his brother didn't always allow himself to show the goodness in him, or at least all of that was how it seemed to Sam. Whether it was the case or not, wasn't that easy to tell. Granted, Dean did show the good in him, more than a bit, Sam had to admit that but it wasn't enough, at least not as far as he was concerned.

"Yeah, alright I do get it, ok? I get he is our brother but don't forget, though, we never knew about him until now, did we? I get it, I do, but it's dad's fault, not ours, is it? We are not minded readers, remember? Unfortunately, won't lie but it is the way it is, Dean? We can't change the past, only the future. We didn't fail him, dad did! Dad failed him and us, Dean, that is the truth and the sooner you get it, the better. If he didn't, it's not our fault, it's dad's just as I said before, blame dad not me or yourself for it, alright? We never knew him, but dad did and never told us anything about him. Dean, get a grip, will ya? We weren't there but then again we had no idea about him, did we? If dad told us or had it in his journal and we ignored it, that is different, but it's not the case, is it? And Dean his taste in cars and music is his business nor ours."

He said and sighed, as he looked down and back at him. Sam thought that Dean was pushing it, at least that was how it seemed to him. He hated that Dean didn't like his choice of cars and music, he didn't need his brother to do the same to their younger brother, as that was just wrong in every level. Sam spoke again and after that, he listened to him again as he sighed once more.  He looked around and back at his brother as he let him finish before he himself spoke to him again. Sam looked down and back at him as he shook his head to what he had said. He wondered where all of that possibly came from, as it sounded insane, at least it did to him. Unlike Dean, he didn't believe it was true, yes he believed that his brother was angry that he left, but that was as far as it went. There was no way that his brother was jealous of him, as Dean attracted more girls than him.  Besides, who knew if Sam and Jesse were ever meant for each other in the first place. Now he would never ever know, but somehow he doubted that they even meant to be together at all.

"I believe you were angry, but that's as far as it goes. Do you really think I would believe that you were jealous? If you wanted to have a girlfriend then you could, in fact, you still can! Then again who says that my life would have always been normal, if it was in my cards for me then she would have still been alive, won't she? And nothing else would have happened. Who says that if you didn't come for me that a demon wouldn't come and kill her anyways, whether when she is pregnant, on our wedding day or when I am away at work? So you see, I am not lucky at all? Besides, just the fact that I met her was a pure luck, as you get more girls into you than me, especially when we were kids. Think about it, for once, will ya?"

[Dean Winchester]

Dean smirked.

"You know me too well. But before we could skip town. I'd rather not skip town in a different world. No one out there to help bail us out of if we got into a jam. And we'd have to go back to stealing or scams to get food. And here isn't so bad. I kinda like it here. I have no reason to leave or cause trouble. They didn't have to take us in at all and they did." said Dean.

Dean frowned at him.

"If one turns out to be an evil clown then I'll deal with it. But I doubt that." said Dean.

Dean shrugged.

"I said a few. And you could try to take the keys from me. But you wouldn't get far. Or I'd get them back." said Dean.

Dean glanced at him annoyed.

"I've been looking after myself for years as well as you. I know what I'm doing. Just because dad isn't here doesn't mean you get to be dad # 2. Lay off ok?" said Dean.

Dean nodded as thoughts drifted to this new brother.

"Dad kept this from us. If we came here we might have never find out. I doubt Bobby would have kept it from us so dad lied to him about it too. And now I feel awful for saying this but I wish he stayed there. I don't want him to end up here. It's worse than the hunting we were doing. He wouldn't be safe." said Dean.

Dean smirked.

"No I really couldn't. Hunting's in my blood. It's something I don't see myself giving up anytime soon. A girlfriend. A wife. Kids. That's be putting them in danger. We lost mom and dad because of demons. I was jealous but at the same time I was also glad you were safe. And resented I couldn't go with you. But I guess I was too much of a loyal soldier and probably too late for me to change. But you could always do that. Go out and have a life. If we ever do get home I'd want that for you. To find someone else and start a family. Or do that here in case we never get back." said Dean.

@samwinchester

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Sam spoke again as he watched his brother and sighed to that, as he was unsure of what to think. His brother wasn't the kind of person you could trust, as far as he knew and that worried him a great deal. Sam hoped that he could trust his older brother aa he cared for him after all, but the fact that he had no idea if he could trust him or not worried him to no end. He looked around and back at his brother, as he sighed to that. Sam listened to his brother and sighed, not sure what to think or do next. He had no idea what to say either, especially he didn't expect to hear his brother say what he said or even mean it for that matter of fact. Sam would have no believed him, if not for the simple fact that his brother seemed more sincere than he ever thought he could be.  He looked him over to find anything thst said hid brother was lying or something but he found nothing, which confused him. Sam never saw his brother being so sincere, unless it was something important to him or somethinb like that. He looked around and back at his brother shocked.

"I do. We are brothers, remember? We more or less grew up together! So yes I do know you well. Well, well! Who are you and what did you do with my older brother, Dean? I do agree with what you said but it's so not like you. Not at all, even if you are right about it! Yeah, something you know more than me about, isn't it? Well, what happened to you? Did you spend the night with a girl or two? I like it here myself but had no idea that you did too. That is right but it is odd to hear you say that" Sam said to his brother shocked. As he never thought that his older brother would ever say that. Sam was proud of his brother even so comfused to hear him say that. Knowing his older brother the way that he did, that was the last thing he ever expected to hear him say. Sam was impressed with his older brother and not just proud of him. 

He spoke again as he watched his brother and then listened to him once more not sure what to think or say next. Sam wasn't sure what to think but that was yet again an answer he never expected to hear. He was glad that his brother said what he said but surprised too. Sam's brother wouldn't have said that before but he did now, which made him wonder even more if it was his brother or not. Also, it was definitely impressive and mature reaction but surprising and shocking too. It did made Sam wonder if it really waz his brother or not.

"Really?That is your answer? You will deal with it? Not run away? So you don't fear just any clown anymore but only those who are evil? Seriously? And if one turns out to be an evil clown you will deal with it?So you know there are good clown too? There is no catch, is there Dean? It is really you, right? You matured?For real?I am so proud of you Dean. I wondered how long would it take you! You were scared from all clowns when we were younger. What changed? What made you realize that not all are evil, Dean? I had no idea that you would realize it all and stop being scared. Very good, Dean if we are stuck here on your birthday, I will ask someone to get dressed like a clown for you and we will  see if  you are still scared of them or if the fear really went away as you seem to claim! I sure hope it did go away as you were worrying me with that kind of fear of yours, Dean"

Sam spoke again as he watched Dean. He truly hoped that his brother wasn't too drunk or anything like that.Yes, Sam heard what his brother said but he wasn't sure if he could believe him or not, even if he hoped that it was true. With Dean, he wasn't sure one way or another but he hoped that he could believe him. Yet, Sam had no idea what was true and what wasn't. Even if he was beginning to believe him.  Sam hoped that his brother wasn't fooling him or it won't be good as he was falling for it, if it was a lie then it would mean he fell or was falling with his brother's lie, yet again! If it was real which he hoped that it was, then he was truly proud of his older brother, Dean. As long as it was real that was all that mattered! Or so Sam thought, at least.

"Alright. A few is two beers or max 3, at times 4  but that's it. How many did you drink, Dean?Be honest with me ir trust me I will find out on my own. Which means it would be a lot better if you tell me, Dean! If you want me to believe you, it is your way to prove that you are telling the truth. If you aren't lying then you can count how much you have drank! It would be hard to count if you are in fact drunk. So, which one is it? drunk or not drunk? If you are drunk then I can take the keys from you and you won't be able to get them back and probably you won't even remember you ever had them. Only if you are not drunk at all it would be very hard for you to do that"

Sam watched him, not sure what to think. Also, he still didn't completely trust him. Sam wanted to trust his older brother but had no idea if he could trust. Even if he wanted to trust him. The longer passed thr more unsure he was of whether he could trust him or not, which was exactly what worried, other than anything else.

"Really? I remember you trusting dad on everything, whether he was right or not, remember? Even when he turned out to be wrong. you could handle yourself when you raised me and yourself when dad was away, but you also almost exposed us being without our parents, remember? It is good that people got convinced that we aren't alone completely or we would have ended up in a foster home. When we went to a normal school, while dad was away, you ended up being with two girls and cheated on both. This is more of a behavier of someone who has no idea how to be the adult of the family when needed. I was more the mature one of the two of us, as always, remember? Which means even now you need a parent figure and turns out, it has to be me who acts like dad for you to grow up. I will lay off only when you prove you can handle it! Can you do that, Dean? Can you prove that you know your limits or do I drag you away right now?"

Sam watched Dean, as he spoke again and after that, he listened to his older brother once more. He continued to watch him as he listened to him again. Sam looked around and back at his brother as he watched him once more, as he continued to listen to him.  Sam wondered about that brother of their's as he hoped that his older brother didn't made him up or anything like that or he will find away to pay him back for that, one day or another. He had no doubt about that. Sam refused to let him get away with somrthing like that, no matter what.

"He Did? He actually kept that from us?Are you really that surprised by that? Dad kept a lots of secrets from us, remember? I don't think he knows any better. I am not surprised that he did that as well! To  be honest with you, Dean. I do wonder how many more siblings he was hidding from us! Don't you? Maybe and maybe not. Things like that tend to come out when you least expect them, ya know?!Yeah or it is possible that they were in it together. They do have secrets they tell each other but not us, remember? What if it is the same way now, with this one too? What would you do then? You care about a brother you just met but not so much about your other brother? Interesting. Just a question but what if it is a lie and we don't have another brother? We can't be angry at dad for everything. Only for secrets that he did keep which were planty! Also, what if he is his brother and dad didn't know about him? Have you wondered about that?If he is a good guy and really our brother then I too wish he stayed there and never gotten here. Yeah, no kidding but assumingly he is our brother and not a demon who lied to all of us. Which trust me I do hope that he is real and not a liar, for many reasons!That way I am not the youngest brother anymore and it also means we are trusting the right person but I am angry too as it means dad hid other family from us and even more of a liar than I ever thought that he was"

Sam watched his brother again as he sighed to that. He spoke once more and after that, he listened to him again. Sam wasn't sure if he could ever have that. Esprcially after the death of Jesse and what not. Sam wanted to find love again and have a family but wasn't sure if it was even possible at all or not. He wasn't sure if love, family and a normal life was in the cards for him or not. Even so, Sam doubted that it was even if he wished that it was.

"Yes, you could if you let yourself. It might not be easy but you still can! Just let other hunters do the hunting. You can help once in a while when your help is needed! You can find love and move on right here too, if we never get back home and all. Is it? Is it really? It is in our blood but we can get out of it, if we let ourselves do it. Even for a hot babe as you call prety women? You can protect them and you aren't alone either. We lost mom and dad but do you really think that they wanted that life for any of us? You need to choose your life. The safe kind of life!
Really? Is that so? You were jealous and blamed me for the fight with dad, but it was dad's fault not mine. You could have came with me! Part of me hoped you would join because you are my big brother. You can be annoying but I still love you! You just let dad reuin you. It isn't too late. It is never too late, Dean! And you know, now I probably can't do that. Especially since I am scared they would die like Jess! You lost two people because of demons but I lost 3 people. Which includes Jess, remember? I don't know if I can do that. At least not anytime soon but you will, so please do that for me! I am cursed but you aren't cursed at all, Dean. So use it, please! I doubt that anyone would want me, as all girls seem to want you more than me! So what is the point in trying to do that? At least what is the point in that for me, Dean? I don't deserve to be happy but you are, so just fo that for me, alright?"

[Dean Winchester]

Dean shrugged.

"It's true Sam. I'm not used to being in one place for too long. I'm used to being on the road always searching for the next hunt. But we're basically retired now. There may not even be a way to return us home so we have to adapt. Those creatures in the army are the closest we may get to demons in this world and I won't let innocent people suffer. So that's why I'm sticking around here." said Dean.

Dean shuddered.

"I've always thought clowns were evil. If any do show up here then I'll just avoid them." said Dean.

He paused at Sam's words and glared at him.

"You'd better not Samantha. I never really celebrate my birthday anymore as it is. Now way am I going to have clowns at it. Unless it's a salt and burn. Then that might be fun." said Dean.

Dean shrugged.

"I can indulge once and awhile here Sammy. I don't need to be on the road anymore all the time. I can always sleep it off or get a hangover cure from one of the others. I just don't do it much." said Dean.

Dean shrugged.

"Not really everything. I trusted him on information about hunts. But I've always tried to forget about it or focus on other things. But I remember how was before mom died. I miss that. When she died in some ways it felt like I lost my father too. He became more of a teacher than a father to us. And you were too young to know him back then. I'll always love dad but he was too wrapped up in revenge and hunts to show it I guess. Bobby was more of a dad to us and I'll always be grateful to him." said Dean.

Dean shook his head.

"You don't tell me what to do. I can drink, smoke. Whatever. I know my limits and it's not up to you to decide anything for me. I'd live in a hotel by myself if I had to but I don't have that kind of money. And the usual scams may not work here." said Dean.

Dean sighed.

"I know that. Sometimes I wonder if we really knew him at all." said Dean.

He paused hearing Sam's tonhe and looked at him in shock.

"Where the hell is this coming from? Of course I care about you. You're my brother just as much as this other guy is. I guess dad's rubbed off on me more than I care to admit. I don't do chick flick moments and all." said Dean, running his hand through his hair with a sigh.

Dean sighed.

"Demons wouldn't lie about something like that. And if they did they'd definitely show up much sooner. Like when we were younger. Easier to take us out as teens or kids before we finished our training. Or to kill you when you were off at college isolated from me, dad and other hunters that could have helped you if you needed it." said Dean.

Dean shrugged.

"This world doesn't seem to have much supernatural. From what I've seen demons don't exist here or are too weak for us to bother. Either way we don't need to hunt. here. So your point is meaningless. I've always been a hunter. And I guess I'll just adapt to being a soldier in this army and help keep this planet safe." said Dean.

He sighed.

"This is my life Sam. I was jealous because you got out even for awhile. But I was also mad because it felt like you were abandoning us. Abandoning me. For so long it was just the two of us and then you left me alone. You were my only hunting partner. Dad, Bobby and everyone else usually hunted on their own." said Dean.

He sighed again.

"You'll find someone else Sammy. What happened to Jess was awful but you'll find a girl. Perhaps even here." said Sam.

He paused walking up and hugged his brother.

"You deserve happiness. You deserve everything. And you will find it. Even if it takes longer than you wish or may seem hopeless." said Dean.

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